July 9 ------ Anji, the big winner of Pinoy Big Brother (PBB) Kumunity Season 10, was equally appreciative of her participation in the music video as the love interest of Eian Rances.
It’s Okay Not To Be Okay, a partnership between me and Star Music, acknowledges that recovery takes time. Anji said it has helped a lot of people to heal emotionally, including her “because before, I was so drowned in the past that I forgot that I should also focus on the present. So, the pain, seemingly, put me in a trap.” Listening to the song reminds her not to rush the healing process. “I remember Angela saying to me that one day, I can tell myself, ‘Ah, okay na talaga ako.’” The 19-year-old Kapamilya artist is vocal about her yearning to see her dad who went missing when she was eight years old. Her family is clueless of his whereabouts. That’s why when PBB host Kim Chiu asked if she has finally moved on, Anji revealed that she’s still in a healing process. Anji possesses a never-give-up attitude that is worth emulating, especially when we are daunted so much by the humiliation of failures. Her journey to get to her position was not easy. She failed many auditions but without losing face even in the course of repeated rejections. I was also told about her attempt to audition for Star Circle Quest. “Yes, I did audition in 2015, but it didn’t push through. Actually, I also tried out for PBB. I really went to all auditions because I have this mindset of why audition in only one when I can audition in all of them (laughs).”
In an interview, Anji talked about her memories of her long-lost dad, her learnings inside the Big Brother house and the actors she wishes to work with. “Because I overthink that maybe my father has another family or maybe he doesn’t love us and aside from that, it’s because I love him so much. I’m a Daddy’s Girl. And what’s really frustrating is that we know nothing — not even a single word or any information about why he’s gone. Even my paternal grandparents do not know anything. We were left clueless. I wanted to know why, but I don’t know how. I learned from kuya (Big Brother) that not everything needs a closure. Doon (sa PBB) ko rin natutunan to slowly let go off the grudges, to let go of the pain. Of course, I will never forget my dad, but I will let go of all the painful things that happened to me.”, Anji said. When asked how it felt being in the house of kuya when the topic was brought up, she said: “Of course, there were times when I was scared to open up. But I really tried my best not to be drowned in the situation because it really makes me sad. I wanted to like, set it free because I’m trapped. I feel trapped because I’m holding on to that pain. I’m always longing for him, always looking for a father’s love and always thinking about maybe he left us because he doesn’t love us. But these are speculations because we don’t know where he is and why he left. So, that trap is basically about speculations of the negative. I think what you can do is be trapped in love.” When asked to open up about the story about him she said: “I don’t know the story. Bahala na si God, pero mahal ko ang tatay ko. That’s what kuya also told me.” Asked about her best memory with her dad, she said: “We were in the balcony of our house and he said, ‘Look at those stars, you’re gonna be one of them. You’re gonna be a star.’ I also remember him telling us how he loves us so much and he would always talk about how to stay humble, how to always be kind na kahit sinasaktan ka, just be kind kasi sinasabi niya sa amin na kindness is a gift from God. We should share our blessings and kindness is a blessing from God and it will come back to you a thousand times.”
Anji also revealed that she prays for her father, adding: “I always pray to God to keep him safe and always let him feel that he’s loved wherever he is. I always pray also to God that if this is His purpose to make us strong or if this is one of the purposes why God took him away from us, then please Lord p’wede mo bang saktan mo na lang ako earlier so that I would know right away your purpose. I believe what I read in the Bible that God breaks us to make us.” When asked what motivated her to keep on going with her showbiz career, she said: “I had this thinking na kung ayaw n’yo sa akin, kukulitin ko kayo (laughs). So, I auditioned again in 2019. I was not shy na magpa-cute. I auditioned for Idol Philippines and passed. I was lucky enough to reach the Do or Die (round).” She also revealed her regular companion in auditions: “It was my aunt because my mom was then busy in her schooling. Bago lang siya naging nurse at itong pandemic, she’s already working. I told her to just work and I’ll do my best. Sabi n’ya, ‘Okay, go, go.’” When asked the one thing she’ll never forget in the PBB house: “I will never forget how kuya taught me how to love myself first because when I love, especially with my family and friends, inuuna ko sila at nakakalimutan ko na ‘yung sarili ko. So, kuya would say, ‘Anji, mag-tira ka naman para sa sarili mo.’” When it comes to the reason she was chosen as the big winner, she answered: “It’s because people can relate to me and also because of the trust they gave to me. They know about my journey because I showed my true self inside the PBB house. Aside from that, I was able to realize my ultimate goal which my dad passed on to me — to spread love and kindness to everyone.”
Source: philstar.com
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